~~"I AM WORTHY"~~

     Good morning and happy, happy, Friday!  It is hard to believe it is already toward the end of June and still so chilly out in the morning, 44 degrees, the sky is a bit gray but with chance of clearing and delighting my heart with the blue of the blues:) The birds, as like everyday, are singing a happy tune, there is a bit of a breeze and the world is just beginning to wake up:) Oh the beauty he provides us!!!! AMAZING:)
      This morning in prayer, I was filled with such a presence of the holy spirit, it was as if he were sitting beside me, I sat there with goosebumps on my arms and legs, I was inside so no...it was not the 44 degrees:) The deeper into meditation, the stronger the spirit became, at one point I felt tears streaming down my face and my heart was dancing with excitement! I tried to think of exactly what I was praying at the moment that I felt him but was so filled with emotion that I could not remember. It was very difficult to finish my prayer, to even sit still with the power of him around me. I calmed my mind and proceeded with prayer, I began again asking mercies and strength for myself and boom the goosebumps got bigger and my heart fluttered more, at first I thought...maybe he is irritated because I am praying for "me" but then I know that the holy spirit will not stay in unholy situations...so I proceeded... heart pounding, goose bumps, chills, almost giddiness...when I finished my prayer and sat in the quiet, I realized that the message I need to leave today is "SELF" how can we be healthy of mind, how can we pray for others if we do not ask mercies for ourselves. How can we be examples of Christ if we do not pray for us? I thought about it and wondered...am I worthy to seek God for me? Am I worthy to ask him to feed me for strength, to cover me with his healing hands, to calm the fears in my heart, to wash me clean from the sin that I encounter on a daily basis, to forgive my unclean thoughts???? I was so validated by once again feeling the strong presence of the Holy Spirit! I now get it....if I do not take care of "me" I will not be able to continue in my journey of spreading God's message. Thank you Lord for blessing me with another truth, for opening my eyes so that I might see what I am in need of in my life, for allowing me to feel, to hear, to see. God is amazing, I am so thankful that he is in my life. 
     May this day, you really...really....really....ask blessings and mercies for yourself, may you not be like me and think to pray for everyone else but neglect yourself? May you feel the presence of the holy spirit in validation that  your choices are pleasing to our father in heaven. May you feel God's love and share with others! Love in Christ to all:) amen.