Thinking of you Megan with joy in my heart!

To my Megan, my daughter, the mother of my grandson, my best friend my life! 

It has been almost a month now since you labored so intensely to bring sweet baby Chalmers into this world, it seems like yesterday when I was laboring with you...when I was riddled with fear as to what kind of mother I would be, when I sat in wonder as to how you would look, how you would act, what you would be when you grew up. When I sat crying with this beautiful newborn baby in my arms thanking God for the miracle of you.  I have shared stories all of your life with you about things I remember so well, such as your birth, your growing up years, your pain, your tears, your joys, you zanies! I think you never understood how I could remember all of these things when I could not remember what I had eaten for lunch yesterday. As I grow older the joys in my life become more and more dear to me, the memories that I hold are, many days, what keep me going. I love you so much Megan and am so pleased that now you will have memories burned into your brain that you will share with Chalmers over and over again, he, never quiet understanding how you could remember such menial little things! I sit now and see you with your baby, I have shared phone conversations with you over concerns you are having with his day to day life and I realize even more today how important it is to be a mom. I realize how wonderful it is that I can share with you so that you can share with him as he grows. I am so proud of you honey, you have taken motherhood by storm, you have been Super Woman since the minute he was born. I have no doubts in my mind that this little boy is very lucky to have you and Derek. I have no fear that he will be taken care of each and every step of his journey called life, I have no doubt that he will be loved completely and without condition. We make mistakes as parents, Lord knows I have and I take full responsibility for the ones I have made. But with each mistake comes learning, with each short coming comes will to do better. Do not beat yourself up if you forget some things, or if you don't get all done in one day that you had planned, do not beat yourself up if you are tired and decide to sit and hold that precious baby instead of cleaning your windows. Take one day at a time, be filled with joy over his new accomplishments and dust off the frustrations of yesterdays fails. Each new day is a blessing , every moment something new and wonderful. Relax and enjoy this time and know that you are so very loved! 

May this day be filled with many grins and giggles! 

I love you sweet child of mine!

mom.